Currently Listening Heroine By From First to Last waltz moore see related

I hope she <3's me!

Friday was psychotic at first, i kinda had a 3 second break down but luckily my crew at school are just as crazy as i am.  So we went outside in the middle of the football field to scream "i hate you" n "i hope u die" at the top of our lungs. At the end of the day i had a tear jerker moment it was a note from kaley it said "XOCHILT i love you" n " i find peace when im with you in a world that is starting to hurt me"  AW i swear that totally made me cry! Gosh all this time i was fixated on holding on to jovan cuz i thought he was the best person i would ever meet...but i was wrong SHE is.  turns out he was just the chupa cabras in my closet. i'll thank him one day for making me see.

my life is BORING!!!

boring is my life hell i dont even care much about it. everyday feels the same and when im lucky sometimes worst.  everyone pays for their sins and i guess i commit huge ones because this paying thing is aching way too much.

hey

did u know

being HAPPY IS NOT NORMAL

you know ur creepy when u creep ur self out...im a suicidal-freak!

 WELL my reunion was awesome.  My sat was crazy and fun.  And my Sunday was horrible.   I guess its practly an unwritten law that garantees sundays are meant to suck!  I was depressed the whole damn day and i only got out of bed to attend church (go jesus) and to eat oh yea and to use the potty.  My dad called me a whore and i believed it.  Too bad i have not the balls to tell that biotch to fuck off.  I hate love today it aches my heart unbarebly, i wish i could grab him by the throat and choke him until he felt what i feel every time he fucks me over.  I wish i could drench my lips in poison and give him the deadly kiss he deserves.

 "My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon"

I spent most of last night dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out- the joke's on you
we are salt- you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
I'm the kind of kid
that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat

Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
because I know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats
where you shouldn't dare sleep
I'll teach you a lesson
for keeping secrets from me

Take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in while
[x2]

And did you hear the news?
I could dissect you
and gut you on this stage
not as eloquent as I may have imagined
but it will get the job done (you're done)
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing
on your bedroom window's ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage

Take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while

Currently Listening A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar By Dashboard Confessional see related

Well days are fun now and im looking forward to a special day but my hopes arent getting too high cuz well thats never good.  Me and reyna walked to whataburger and we ate and we saw two of my old enemies, hey my middle school life was very bodyguarded.  Old beef is messy.  Im glad im out of the wanksta phase, but if u fuck with me it might still slip out.  Like the saying goes u can get the gurl out the ghetto but u cant get the ghetto out the gurl.  um i've never been peacefull now that i think about. ha!